today as we play the harmonica

its really stressful when you got less time to play, to work, and to rest. its really hard for me these day to put myself. the more that i put my effort, the more horrible the result show. should i just bang my head on the wall so for god can forgive me. my head is aching and sore throat haunting me. please forgive me Lord for i just a human that need more guide than ever.

examination will come less than a month, and i still don't have any idea what have i learn at the college. FUCK all the schematics, FUCK the attendance form, FUCK the life i living in. but my day were cured for i found a girl can say it all. im still dont have a clue about her. the graph and all the hypothesis have been done. YET the result shock me to death.

but im still waiting for the time, maybe this one have to take time. and i have to be a SUPER patient person to tell her how i feel. i already put some clues in words that i say. but she like a dove .. so close yet they fly away when you try to get more closer.

i will try to write more about her but you all have to wait. as we speak in tongue, one day we will bite it .. but please let it heal. we do make mistake but try to forgive